I feel like I'm drowning.

I feel like I am drowning right now. I am so tired and blah feeling, that I have been getting NOTHING done. I literally mean nothing. The house has not been cleaned AT ALL in over a month, I am barely keeping up with the laundry, and I have hardly been cooking dinners. I cried to Gairod last night, saying that I am a horrible mother and wife. I haven't rotated the kids toys in several weeks (I am supposed to rotate them once a week), and all I do is sit around on the couch all day. I just have NO energy. I am struggling just to get food on the table, and diapers changed during the day. I hate this. Gairod tells me to relax, and that I need to rest. He says I am looking after 3 toddlers and growing a baby - of course I am tired! But I still feel guilty for everything that I am NOT getting done! I am afraid that I will feel this way the entire pregnancy, and then by the time the baby comes, our house (and our lives) will be a total disaster! I just want to get some energy back, and start getting some stuff done around here!

MAJOR update on my sister!

Okay, so on Wednesday, my sister went to the doctor, and got a steroid shot for the babies' lungs.

Then on Thursday, the health nurse came out to her house to do a non-stress test, and give her the second steroid shot. At this time, she also put my sister on bedrest. She was told she could only be up for 10 minutes at a time, only go up and down stairs twice a day, and she needs to eat every three hours.

On Friday, my sister had an ultrasound. At the ultrasound, they did her blood pressure, and it was too high. They basically said, you need to go home, pack a bag, and head into the hospital, because if you don't, your kidneys are going to shut down! So my sister drove home in tears, called my mom, they packed a small bag, and went into the hospital. When they got to the hospital, they checked her blood pressure, and it was fine. They did a non-stress test, and it was fine. They did blood work, and it came back fine! So they sent her home, and said that the health nurse would come again on Sunday.

So this morning, the health nurse called and said she was coming out today, instead of tomorrow. Then a little while later, she called back, and said that they got the results from my sisters ultrasound appointment yesterday, and they she needed to go to the hospital. My sister explained that she was just at the hospital last night, and they sent her home. The nurse said that she needed to go again. They faxed over all of her info, and the hospital would be expecting her. So she packed a small bag, and her and my mom went into the hospital AGAIN!

This time, they admitted her. They said that she will be staying in the hospital until she has her baby. They are hoping to get to next weekend, which will be 32 weeks. I am still not 100% clear on WHY they are keeping her in the hospital, but I think they just want to be able to keep a close eye on both my sister, and the baby.

So this evening, Jade and I went up to visit my sister. We brought her a DVD player, some DVD's, and some Valentines cupcakes we made! She is already board, but is willing to do whatever it takes to keep this baby in and growing for as long as possible!

Not so good news about my sister :(

So my sister had another ultrasound today, and in the last week, the baby has not grown AT ALL. She has to go to her doctor tomorrow, and they will give her steroid shots for the babies lungs. They said that they will be delivering her in the next 2 - 4 weeks. She will be 32 - 34 weeks. As of right now, that baby weighs about 2 pounds. They are going to do ultrasounds every 4 days, in hopes that there will be some growth, but said that she will not be going past 34 weeks. She is freaking out and scared that her baby won't make it. PLEASE say a prayer for her!

The cats out of the bag!!

Our parents know, so we are officially telling people we are pregnant!!

My mom called me yesterday afternoon. The first thing she said was "Is this for real?!" She sounded very excited! I said "Oh, did you get your mail?!" Long story short, she was very happy for us, and 'mad' that we didn't tell her sooner! lol!

Tonight Gairod got impatient, and called his parents. He told his dad, who was very excited! His mom had gotten the mail earlier today, but hadn't had a chance to show his dad the poem yet, so that is why he didn't know! They both sounded happy for us!

I feel so relieved now that they know, and are happy about it! I feel like a huge stress has been lifted off of me :)

Meltdown!

Well, it finally happened! Last night I had a total meltdown, and cried myself to sleep!

The day we found out we were pregnant with the triplets (but before we knew it was triplets!) I was so happy! We had been trying for 13 months, and it had finally happened - we were pregnant! It was what I had wanted for so long. That night as I lay in bed trying to fall asleep, I started to freak out! I started thinking oh my God, what have we done?! Things are going to be so much harder now! We have a 4 year old. She's potty trained, sleeps through the night, we can take her places like camping and boating. Now we are going to throw a baby into the mix?!? (Little did I know how crazy things were actually going to get, since instead of one baby, there would be three!!) Even though I had wanted a baby for so long, I was scared of the change, of the unknown, and realizing that things would never again be the same. So I had my meltdown the day I found out we were pregnant. Of course I freaked out again when we found out it was triplets, but then I embraced our blessing, and kept on moving forward!

With this pregnancy, I hadn't had my freak out moment yet - until last night! I was waiting for it, I knew it would be coming. I expected it to come a lot sooner! I thing part of it was that I was tired, part was that I am SOOO tired of feeling sick almost all the time! After eating Jello for dinner last night, because nothing else appealed to me, I sat on the couch and watched TV. When I went to go get washed up for bed, that's when it all came flooding at me: I don't want to do this. I don't care if we have another baby, I don't want to be pregnant anymore. I just want to feel normal. I want to be able to eat normal, play with my kids normal, live my life normal! I can't do this for another 7 months! Our kids all sleep through the night, they are all getting so much more independent. What have we done? What if we have made a horrible mistake?
I said good night to Gairod, who was watching TV, and I went into our bedroom, layed down in bed, and cried. I cried until I finally fell asleep.

I feel much better this morning. I needed to go through that. I needed to get all of my scared feelings out, so that now I can move forward. I can do this, it will get better, and we will have a beautiful little baby in the end, which will make everything worth while!

23 months old!

I seriously can not believe that my babies are less than a month away from being TWO!!!! On the 5th they turned 23 months old. To me, two always seems like the true end of babyhood. I am sad that they are growing up, but also happy that they are becoming more independent. I find toddler hood to be a very bitter-sweet time!

I weighed the triplets on Monday, and here are their stats:

Kadance is 23lbs, 5ozs. She is in the 10th percentile for weight. I did not get a height measurement for her, because she WOULD NOT lay down!

Cole is 26lbs, 14ozs. He is 33 1/2 inches tall. He is between the 25th and the 50th percentiles for both height and weight.

Hayden is 26lbs, 10ozs. He is 32 3/4 inches tall. He is between the 25th and the 50th percentile for weight, and between the 10th and the 25th percentile for height.

My ultrasound - 7w2d

So I had my ultrasound this morning, and it looks like we have ONE healthy baby!! After having a dream last night that we were having quads, I was quite nervous this morning! lol! I somehow lucked out and got an awesome ultrasound tech! The first thing she said to me, before even looking at my requisition, was, "So, how many do you think there is!" I said "We are hoping just one - I already have triplets at home!" She said "TRIPLETS?!?!" LOL! She was quite shocked! She was very nice, and showed me everything - The yolk sack, the baby, and it's little heart beating strong at 140 beats per minute! I am so relieved and happy! I feel much more confident in this pregnancy now! When I got home, I printed off my poem, and I will mail them to our parents later today! Then we just have to sit back and wait for the phone calls!!

Update on my sister.

So, I guess my sister went to the doctor, AND had another ultrasound today. They said that the baby is measuring smaller then they would like it to, but they can't seem to find any reason for it. So basically, she just has to wait and see. She will be having more frequent doctor appointments and ultrasounds to keep and eye on it.

In other news, I have my ultrasound tomorrow!! I am very excited, but also nervous! I am nervous because it is at the place that I am not to fond of. The ultrasound techs always seem so cold there, and they will never tell you anything. I really hope they will show me my baby, and give me pictures! I just want to see a nice, healthy baby!! Wish me luck!

Please pray for my sister.

So, my sister is 29 weeks pregnant. She has been quite small throughout her pregnancy, but the baby has always measured fine, so her doctor has never been worried. Well, I guess at her last visit, he was a little concerned, so he sent her for an ultrasound. After her ultrasound today, her OB's office called and said they need to see her tomorrow! So needless to say, she is a little worried and freaking out! Please pray that everything will be okay with her and her baby.

Also, she has been quite sick the last while, so today she went to her regular doctor, and found out she has pneumonia!! The problem is, they said the only thing she can safely take during pregnancy is penicillin, which she is allergic to!

So please, if you are reading this and you are a religious person, please say a little prayer for my sister tonight, that everything turns out okay.

Thank you!

Tired of feeling queasy!

So it has been exactly one week since I started feeling nauseous! And I can officially say - I am sick of it!! At first I was kind of glad, since it is more reassurance that the baby is doing well, but now I am SOOO tired of feeling sick ALL THE TIME!! I haven't actually pucked, I never have with morning sickness, but I feel nauseous all day. I am hungry, but the thought of food makes me queasy! Trying to make meals for the kids and Gairod is proving quite challenging, since NOTHING appeals to me! The only break I get from the nausea is when I am sleeping. I am really hoping to only have another week or two of this, and then HOPEFULLY I will start to feel better!