More Packing Progress :)

I got into another packing kick this past week, and I am now up to 63 boxes, not including the ones Gairod has packed in the garage. Yes, I am a big dork, and I actually counted all the boxes. ;) Not all of them are in the picture, as some are in the kids closets.

We now have just under 3 weeks to possession, and 4 weeks to moving day! I am kind of at another stand-still, and need to wait another week or two to be able to pack a bunch more stuff!

Change.

After chatting with a good friend on Friday, I think I've figured out what my problem is right now.

I think I am just really nervous/anxious about moving. Moving is change, and change scares me. Don't get me wrong, I AM excited about moving, but I am nervous and stressed about all of the unknowns. I am a planner, and I like to be in control, and I feel like right now, so many things are out of my control, and I can't plan anything in my life past March.

I'm not too worried about the actual moving process - I know that packing and moving all of our possessions is going to be stressful and crazy, but honestly that part doesn't bug me too much. I can plan that part - to some extent! lol!

The part that I am most anxious about, and haven't really even admitted to myself until now, is the part that comes after. Actually living on an acreage, 45 minutes away our current home, and almost an hour away from where we spend a lot of time, getting groceries, doing speech therapy, swimming, going to the library, etc.

I am excited, but nervous, about our new life. I am excited about all of the possibilities, the space, and the fact that we are finally going to be living in a place where we can start moving towards the lifestyle that we want for our family.

But I am nervous about all of the unknowns, and the distance from everything, including family and friends. I'm nervous about living on a acreage! I've always lived in a town, and so has Gairod, so this will be a new thing for both of us. I'm nervous for when he is working nights, and I am all alone out there with the kids. I am nervous about the loss of "freedom" to just call up a friend and have them come for coffee that afternoon, or to just "pop into" Airdrie on a whim.

It's going to be a lifestyle change, and honestly, I am happy about it, but I am also nervous and anxious, and I know it will take some getting used to. I just want to hurry up and move, so that I can start getting used to my new life!

What is it with February?!

I don't know what it is with February, but it really seems to be a month that just doesn't agree with me.

Two years ago, I was diagnosed with PPD in February.

Last year, I slipped on some ice, hit my head, and ended up with a major concussion in February.

I lack motivation in February, I have bad luck in February, and I get depressed in February.

I used to think that maybe it was the weather, but this winter has been exceptionally mild, and I have made a point to get out and soak up the vitamin D, and yet I still feel unmotivated and blue.

I don't know what my problem is, I just don't really feel like doing anything. I have been eating like crap, which makes me feel like crap, yet I can't seem to motivate myself to start eating healthy again. I have tons of packing to do, but I am struggling with it, and would rather sit around doing nothing all day. I just feel blah. I know I am just in a funk, and I will eventually come out of it, but it is frustrating me.

Why does February seem to hate me so much?!

Packing Progress.

I hate to say it, but I am kind of at a stand-still with packing. I only have 31 boxes packed, but we still have 6 weeks left until moving day, and I feel like I have pretty much packed everything that I can for now. Everything else is stuff that needs to wait until we get a bit closer. At first I was bummed, thinking we have WAY too much "last minute" stuff, but then I realized that that's actually a good thing, and it means that my constant de-cluttering is actually paying off, because we don't have a lot of stuff sitting around that we never use! Most of what we have, is stuff that we use on a regular basis :)

It's Official!!!

We got our water test results today, and they were fine, so it is now OFFICIAL - we are moving! :)