Grrrrr!

I am tired. Took a test this morning, negative. Still no period. Temp still up. I am going to assume I am NOT pregnant, and will get my period within the next 2 days. If I don't get it by Wednesday (18 dpo) I will test again. I am so frusterated, I just want to know for sure, one way or the other.

Still waiting....

Well, my temp is still up today, and still no sign of my period, so if all continues to go well, I will test AGAIN in the morning! I am praying so hard that it is positive! I want to be pregnant SOOO badly, and now I am really starting to get convinced that I am, so if I am not, I am going to be crushed. I really don't want to go through any more months of this, so PLEASE God, let me be pregnant!!!!

A waiting game.

So I tested again this morning........ another negative. But no sign of my period, and my temp is still nice and high, so who knows.......I guess I just have to TRY and be patient, and wait and see.

???

I have had to pee like a gazillion times today! Mind you, I did have an extra large Tim Horton's coffee, which usually makes me have to pee more than normal, but not this much!!! This is definitely not helping me convince myself that I am NOT pregnant!

Hmmmm......

Well, today I am 11 dpo, and my temp went up again! That is a good sign! I am hoping beyond hope that I actually am pregnant, and yesterday was just too early to test! I am trying really hard NOT to get my hopes up, but to be honest, I really am feeling quite hopeful! I plan to test tomorrow morning, as long as I don't get my period before then!

Why??

Why can't I just get pregnant easily like everyone else does?? I tested this morning, and it was negative. I hate that one little line. Why can't their be two? I want another baby SOOOO badly! Why did I get pregnant so easily when I was 18, but not now? Why can't my body just work? Why?

Some days.....

Some days I wonder WHY I want more kids! They were definately more than a handful today, Jade included!
I love them all so much, and I really do want another one, but some days I wonder if I can handle it all.
Some days I just have to remind myself that they won't be little forever, and before I know it, they will be grown, and these days will be nothing more than a memory......

I am 9 dpo today, I will test in the morning, wish me luck!

WOW!

Wow. I don't really know what else to say.
Today, my 19-year-old single sister, told us she is pregnant. I am shocked.

The 2 week wait.

I have to start off by saying I really don't like the "2 week wait" (2ww). I am now 8 days past ovulation (dpo). Actually I don't mind the first 4-6 days, because it usually takes me that long to be convinced that I have actually ovulated! But once I get to days 8-10, I really have to start fighting the urge to test. I WANT to test, but I know that even if I am pregnant, it is probably too early to tell, and if I am not, I still have at least a few more days until my period should come. I think I will test on 10dpo. That is Tuesday. I really wish you could just know, right after ovulation, if you are or are not pregnant. I hate the waiting, and wondering, and over analyzing every single thing that could possibly be a symptom of pregnancy! I want this so bad, and I want it to be exciting! I am afraid that if it continues month after month it will suck the life out of me. The month I got pregnant with the triplets, I had bad cramps and a sore back. I was convinced that I was going to get my period, so I didn't even bother getting excited about the possibility of being pregnant. I want to stay excited!

2 down, 1 to go!

I am happy to announce that Hayden is officially walking!!!! He has been *kind of* walking for a few weeks now, but as of today he is doing more walking than crawling, and in my books that makes it official!
I really never thought I would have any kids that would walk so late!
Now to work on Cole. He can do it, he is just not consistent. I am hoping that since he is the only one not walking now, that will motivate him to get up and go!
Maybe I should be careful what I wish for!